February funk
Posted: February 19, 2011 Filed under: Uncategorized Leave a comment »It’s more than half-way through the month now; a fact for which I’m so very very thankful! That said, it’s been a really strange February for me… an oddly emotional and difficult month. For the first time in my life I’m only doing 1 thing right now; working. I thought that having such limited responsibilities would be a breath of fresh air, but frankly it’s left me with way more down time than I’ve had since high school and that I’m weirdly uncomfortable with. I’m feeling guilty that I haven’t used this downtime in more effective ways; I mean, hell I think I’ve posted here maybe twice in a month where I’ve had almost nothing else on my plate!
I finished all my grad school apps before the first of the month, and with everything else done my “to do” list is at zero. So with all this free time I’ve watched a bunch of news, finally finished a book I’ve been trying to finish for a year and went to New York (where I saw the Spider-Man musical which was so bad I started to write a post about it, but it was turning into lengthy rant, so I quit); no major personal accomplishments to speak of.
Why do some of us feel this incessant need to always be doing something and accomplishing something? I assume it’s a result of upbringing, throw in a little genetics and BAM you’ve got an impossible to please over-achiever. Starting today I’m trying to change my perspective about this downtime. I should really be using it as a time to recuperate before whatever is next starts, not tire myself with unnecessary self criticism. Besides, there are 2 really awesome things that either have happened or are happening soon; 1st Radiohead released their new album (or at least part of it) yesterday and it’s f&^%ing mind-blowing, and 2nd I leave for Paris in less than 3 weeks!! So this weary traveler is going to try and take a load off and let it be; if you’re struggling with things right now I hope they get better for you too:) Lots of love, and I’ll be writing soon. Joe
ps. this song, “Codex”, is off Radiohead’s new album… hope you enjoy!
